Fred, You should never apologize for expressing your feelings. You lost someone very close to you & that is going to hurt & bring up a lot of emotions for a long time. Time is what will heal & the memories you have of her. You might even be able to share some stories with her son in the future about his mom. Ones that might be different than his dads if he is real young. The offer is always there my friend if you need to talk. I am just 11 digits away.
Peace to you & her family Fred.