I dont often do this...
I am not often mature and calm when I post if there is an emotion fueling my words..... BUT for some reason after reading EVRY pm i have had during this situation... going over both threads and all emails ( which took me HOURS) I realise one thing...
THIS whole thing is pathetic... no matter what side you stand on.. or whos corner you are in... none of us have managed this situation with dignity or maturity... whether we are teenagers or grannies...
I like to think of myself as a forgiving person and a spiritual person... I have been neither the last few weeks... for that I am annoyed at myself... and only I can change that.....
it is definately time I realised that arguing on the internet is a pathetic distraction from reality..
surely I must have something better to do.. surely there are other threads that are informative and interesting on this forum. AND if i find none then surely playing my guitar or writing poetry would be a far better and more fulfilling pass-time than this.
I no longer care who is right or wrong.... no longer care what has been said or hasnt.. no longer care if all the people I have met that keep snakes this year dislike me... they did not matter before i met them and they certainly dont now...
For some reason I have a sense of peace today... regardles of whether my snakes live or die.. or who is right or wrong.. I wil accept the fate and learn from the situation....
I have been guilty of emotional dramatic posting... if i DO NOT learn from this... i have learned nothing... but i have not lied....
The pathetic.... HE SAID... SHE SAID.... NO I DIDNT... is really tantamount to playground madness.... I for one need to back away from the whole thing and actually remeber what makes me happy in life...
My kids... my animals... playing my guitar and my close friends and family..
if i spent half the time doing what makes me happy the last 4 weeks instead of wasting time posting to people who dont care a jot about me or my animals , i would probably have coped with this whole scenario much better... But sometimes it is time to let go.. to stop trying to be right..
letting go and walking away is one of the most powerful things a person can do in a no win situation..
i dont want to be 65 and still posting on this thread.. BUT BUT BUT and if i continue i can see it going that way .....
This is a fabulous forum ... Id like to take time to look around it and not get caught in this madness anymore...
this was about snakes...NOT people... Widnsor is dead.. and no matter what anyone thinks of elle she IS and WAS heartbroken.... my two snakes are still ill... and no matter what the reasons for their ilness are I stil continue to feel concerned about that fact.... but it shouldnt be taking my life up on a forum arguing and justifying myself to people who blatantly do not give a jot about me or my animals...
IM bored of it now... not of the animals, not of the love I have for them but of petty cat fighting... some of which i have been involved in and for that i am sorry...
So yes..... a bit of peace and quiet and singing with my kids.. dancing silly round my house and getting back to normality would be great..
and thats just what im going to do...