Daenerys
Mother of Dragons
Ok, so when I was in high school I was so sure that I wanted to work with animals. I had an idea of what I wanted to be, where I wanted to work, everything. But that all changed when I got to college. I am currently working towards a major in Zoology, but I am beginning to discover that I am much more interested in the hobby side of animals, keeping and breeding pets, than the science side. My coursework in Zoology hasn't been enjoyable at all, and I am already finishing my second year of college. Organic chemistry is giving me the worst sort of trouble, I hate that subject so much, but it is a requirement to take it for my major. I have to take a total of four chemistry classes, two of which are organic chem, as well as physics classes, genetics classes, math classes (though I am finishing up with those now), and all sorts of science classes like anatomy (already took Animal Anatomy and that was AWFUL...almost as bad as organic chem). I am really not enjoying it at all, most of my classes I have struggled in, and now I have no idea what I want to do with it when I am finished.
However, I have always had a small interest in history. I had always enjoyed it in high school, particularly things dealing with the middle ages, and I am currently taking a middle ages history class and am really enjoying it. I have never been one to enjoy writing essays, but I think the essays I write for this class are much better than all the lab reports that I do for my zoology classes. You'd think a lab report, which in theory is just plugging in the relevant information into its designated spots (write about how you did the experiment in the methods section, write about your results in the results section, discuss your results in the discussion section, etc), would be easier, but its actually not. So far in my history class I have not gotten any less that a B while I am struggling to hold my D in organic chemistry.
I have considered changing my major to history and perhaps becoming a history teacher, but I really don't know if this is what I want to do. The idea seems nice, but I know from experience that ideas can be more appealing until you actually try to do the thing itself (that's kind of what I have been saying so far, lol). If I were to switch to a history major I know my life would become full of essay writing, and considering that the class on the middle ages I am taking now is a lower level history, I'm sure it will get more difficult as I move on to upper level classes. I'm really not sure if one class is even enough to make a decision based on. And if I want to do teaching, of course I'd have to do some teaching classes and stuff, and I am not sure that that path is even a good idea, but I have never tried teaching anything to anyone, so who knows.
So, I am really really confused right now about what I want to do. There are so many possibilities....if I stick with Zoology, what could I do? Is there anything I would actually enjoy that would actually pay enough for it to be worth doing? If I don't switch, will I regret it forever? What if I do switch to History, and discover that I really wanted Zoology all along? What if it is actually MORE difficult than what I have been doing?? What if I do try to be a teacher and it just doesn't work? What else could I do that would be enjoyable for me as a History major?
Does anyone have any advice for me before I go mad worrying about this!?!?!?
However, I have always had a small interest in history. I had always enjoyed it in high school, particularly things dealing with the middle ages, and I am currently taking a middle ages history class and am really enjoying it. I have never been one to enjoy writing essays, but I think the essays I write for this class are much better than all the lab reports that I do for my zoology classes. You'd think a lab report, which in theory is just plugging in the relevant information into its designated spots (write about how you did the experiment in the methods section, write about your results in the results section, discuss your results in the discussion section, etc), would be easier, but its actually not. So far in my history class I have not gotten any less that a B while I am struggling to hold my D in organic chemistry.
I have considered changing my major to history and perhaps becoming a history teacher, but I really don't know if this is what I want to do. The idea seems nice, but I know from experience that ideas can be more appealing until you actually try to do the thing itself (that's kind of what I have been saying so far, lol). If I were to switch to a history major I know my life would become full of essay writing, and considering that the class on the middle ages I am taking now is a lower level history, I'm sure it will get more difficult as I move on to upper level classes. I'm really not sure if one class is even enough to make a decision based on. And if I want to do teaching, of course I'd have to do some teaching classes and stuff, and I am not sure that that path is even a good idea, but I have never tried teaching anything to anyone, so who knows.
So, I am really really confused right now about what I want to do. There are so many possibilities....if I stick with Zoology, what could I do? Is there anything I would actually enjoy that would actually pay enough for it to be worth doing? If I don't switch, will I regret it forever? What if I do switch to History, and discover that I really wanted Zoology all along? What if it is actually MORE difficult than what I have been doing?? What if I do try to be a teacher and it just doesn't work? What else could I do that would be enjoyable for me as a History major?
Does anyone have any advice for me before I go mad worrying about this!?!?!?